This song sums up how I’m going about my life right now.

A Better Man – Keb’ Mo’

Sittin’ here in my problem
What am I gonna do now?
Am I gonna make it?
Someway, somehow.

Maybe I’m not supposed to know
Maybe I’m supposed to cry
And if nobody ever knows
The way I feel
It’s all right
And it’ll be ok

(Chorus:)
I’m gonna make my world a better place
I’m gonna keep that smile on my face
I’m gonna teach myself how to understand
I’m gonna make myself a better man

Climbing out of the window
Climbing up the wall
Is anybody gonna save me?
Or are they gonna let me fall?
Well I don’t really wanna know
I´ll just hold on the best I can
And if I fall down
I´ll just get back up
It’ll be alright
It’ll be ok

(Chorus 2x)

Maybe I’m not supposed to know
Maybe I’m supposed to cry
And if nobody ever knows
The way I feel
That’s all right
It’ll be ok

(Chorus 2x)

They say breaking up is hard to do. I don’t know if that statement is from the perspective of the dumper, or the dumpee.

Speaking as the dumpee, it sucks.

But I survived the loss of my father over two years ago, and while this feels very similar to that, I know that this pain too will pass.

One day at a time. Sometimes one hour at a time. But I’ll get through it.

I still love her. And I really do want to remain her friend, and I hope for all the happiness in the world for her. That’s all I ever wanted for her really.

I know not what tomorrow brings. I only know that I have control of my own decisions, and no one else’s. I will forge ahead on my own path. I will do what my heart feels is right and I will not do things just because it’s what is “expected of me”.

Go me. Go on.