MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Merry Christmas to all!

More things I’ll never forget

Singing with Alissa at our Christmas Karaoke party.

Seeing baby Kale (1 yr. old) gently nurse his older brother Mikey (6 yr. old) who was feeling sick.

The look on Alissa’s face when she broke up with me. That was devestating.

A Better Man

This song sums up how I’m going about my life right now.

A Better Man – Keb’ Mo’

Sittin’ here in my problem
What am I gonna do now?
Am I gonna make it?
Someway, somehow.

Maybe I’m not supposed to know
Maybe I’m supposed to cry
And if nobody ever knows
The way I feel
It’s all right
And it’ll be ok

(Chorus:)
I’m gonna make my world a better place
I’m gonna keep that smile on my face
I’m gonna teach myself how to understand
I’m gonna make myself a better man

Climbing out of the window
Climbing up the wall
Is anybody gonna save me?
Or are they gonna let me fall?
Well I don’t really wanna know
I´ll just hold on the best I can
And if I fall down
I´ll just get back up
It’ll be alright
It’ll be ok

(Chorus 2x)

Maybe I’m not supposed to know
Maybe I’m supposed to cry
And if nobody ever knows
The way I feel
That’s all right
It’ll be ok

(Chorus 2x)

One Day at a Time

They say breaking up is hard to do. I don’t know if that statement is from the perspective of the dumper, or the dumpee.

Speaking as the dumpee, it sucks.

But I survived the loss of my father over two years ago, and while this feels very similar to that, I know that this pain too will pass.

One day at a time. Sometimes one hour at a time. But I’ll get through it.

I still love her. And I really do want to remain her friend, and I hope for all the happiness in the world for her. That’s all I ever wanted for her really.

I know not what tomorrow brings. I only know that I have control of my own decisions, and no one else’s. I will forge ahead on my own path. I will do what my heart feels is right and I will not do things just because it’s what is “expected of me”.

Go me. Go on.