Ok, maybe it’s the fact that I worked another wedding. Maybe it’s because funding for “Behind the Window” is still dragging along. Maybe it’s the phone conversation I just had with my Mother. Maybe it’s all of the above…

But I’m feeling like shit today.

“Behind the Window” is dragging on in pre-development hell. It’s an unending roller-coaster of ups and downs. One day to the next it’s “looking good”, it’s “no news today”, it’s “so and so is interested”, it’s “well… I’ll definitely be in on the next one.” It’s so frustrating and disheartening. I’m starting to really understand why you hear about films taking 5-10 years to “make”. 85-95% of that time is coming up with funding. So yeah, that’s got me a little bit down.

I spent all of yesterday working Karrie Jordan and Beto Campos’ wedding. It was a beautiful day (aside from the rain). Karrie looked ravishing in her white dress and she and Beto make a truly cute couple. But something about weddings makes me down. It might have something to do with the fact that I’ve kind of come to the conclusion that I won’t ever have one. That’s kind of a tough pill to swallow. And Mom reiterated to me today just how pathetic and sad it is. And she lays the blame on that entirely on my shoulders.

Granted I have made a decision to not pursue a relationship with anyone. That’s a decision I’ve made on at least 10 different occasions over the past 10 years. You see, what most people don’t understand is that just because I’ve “made that decision”, it doesn’t mean I haven’t had my pursuits. I’ve been infatuated, in and out of love and in lust many many times over the past 10 years. I’ve also experienced plenty of rejection and heartache in this time.

Just because most of you don’t hear about it, doesn’t mean I don’t go through it.

And when I do go through it, and I let people in… well… no one EVER likes the girls I fall for.

I don’t know.

Right now… I’m crying and I’m depressed and I’m really on the verge. And I feel like I have no one to turn to for anything.

Just my fucking computer. The only constant in my life. And the only thing that doesn’t judge me. Or tell me I’m full of shit. Or full of myself. Or self indulgent. Or overbearing. Or an Asshole. Or fat. Or unattractive. Or lazy. Or a failure.

It’s no wonder I spend so much time on these fucking machines.

Shit. I don’t even think anyone reads this journal anymore. I don’t know why I even bother writing in it.

Night.

-Dave

Ain’t It Cool News posted a movie review I wrote and submitted to them the other day. It showed up on the site this morning. I’m stoked.

Check it out, it’s the review on “Disney’s Home On The Range”. It’s a positive review, so naturally all the internet geeks who troll about the rumor/news sites are calling me a “studio plant”. It’s quite amusing.

ROCK ON!

-Dave

So last night Mom, Donald, Steve and I got into a game of Scrabble.

Yes, I know… the game does still exist. Mom’s been trying to get me to play with her for a couple of months now. Nothing like making her work for it! I finally gave in last night.

We started playing around 10. Mostly because the internet slowed to a crawl and I couldn’t get anything done. So I decided to pass some time playing the game with Mom and Donald.

Well, Steve got home from work around 1:30am. He joined in.

It was funny. We all got so competitive that when the internet did come back on we hooked up the laptop and started using Scrabble.com’s online dictionary to verify everyone’s words. Steve got to the point where he couldn’t put any word down without checking it first.

So we fought and we battled our way through the night. Eventually the morning sun began to ignite the colors of the scrabble board in the morning rays. We suddenly realized we’d played all through the night when we finally decided to call it quits.

Oh and for those counting… Donald won the first game and then Mom proceeded to trounce us all through the next 5!

D’oh!

-Dave

Another week has come and gone. This week saw the completion of another promo video, this time for Full90 Sports. It’s a video I am actually fairly proud of. One of the better videos I’ve concocted.

They are using it as part of their submission to the ISPO BrandNew Award. I hope that they win. It’d be a nice thing to have worked on a video that helped a company win a major worldwide competition.

Laura’s wedding date is coming up fast. Hopefully I can get my act together and get her video made for the wedding. It’s going to be a sweet video, but I’ve not had any real free time to devote to it. With any luck that free time will come in the next few weeks.

Mom is doing well and has finally found a group of doctors who truly seem like they can provide her with some real help. So we have our hopes up there.

Teesa is still recovering from her bout with Meningitis. Her back is pretty sore still. But she seems to be getting better, slowly but surely, every day.

Adam and Laura have discovered the joys of bowling and are actively pushing Teesa and Mom and I into the sport again. I even bought a new bowling ball. (Hey, it’s tough for a big guy like me to find a ball in the alley that fits my fat fingers.) I haven’t had a ball since I bowled league when I was 9. But hey, it’s a cool ball and I am really enjoying myself.

Mikey Logan turned 4 months old last Saturday. He’s so cute. I just love him to death! He makes me so happy, I absolutely adore him.

Dad lost the election for CYSA-S Secretary due to some behind the scenes politic-ing from the current President. Oh well. Maybe he’ll be able to focus more on the movie stuff now.

Guess that’s all for today. Have a good weekend everybody!

-Dave

Not a whole lot of anything going on…

Working on a Full90 Project and getting Dawson Digital Productions underway.

First pre-production planning meeting for “Queer Eye for the Jedi” is tomorrow. That should be fun.

Mom’s boyfriend Donald will probably be moving down to the area soon. That’ll be good. She’ll be happy to have everyone she loves close by.

I’ll update again soon… hopefully I’ll have more to say.

-Dave

It certainly has been a while since I’ve posted to the old blog…

Such is life. I’ve been so tremendously busy since November. Finishing “One Night At Rossi’s” was a major undertaking… and immediately following that Dad, Teesa and I began working on forming Dawson Digital Productions, Inc. and creating a budget and shooting schedule for “Behind The Window”, our first feature film. (Keep those fingers crossed as we pursue financing.)

It’s been one hell of a time these past few months. And to top it all off, Teesa has come down with Viral Meningitis these last couple of weeks. So we went through a bit of a scare with her while the doctors were trying to figure out what was wrong with her. She even went to the ER and had a Spinal Tap done! (SPINAL TAP ROCKS!!!…er, uh… yeah…)

So anyway… I’m just plugging along at life right now. Excited about the possibilities of the future, and also, a bit scared.

But that’s what makes life so exciting, you know?

I believe it was John Cusack in “Gross Pointe Blank” who is quoted when replying to the question of, “How’s Life?” replied so eloquently with, “In progress.”

In Progress… Sounds about right.

-Dave